Your name is Dirk Strider and you are currently freaking the fuck out. Youve always thought of yourself as the cool one, the man in control, the one with the plan and the guy who always has the answer to everything.
There was never anything in your mind that could prepare you for the biggest obstacle youve ever faced. That obstacle happened to be one Jake English.
Jake English. The boy youve been dreaming about meeting for years. The very same boy youve had a crush on since you were thirteen. Hes tall, and tan, and about as awkward as you. You watch him shift from foot to foot, then smile a bit and walk forward. Hey there buddy! He greets you and laughs. I never thought the day would come Strider!
You want to say Me too. You want to say something so bad, but you just cant seem to find your voice. Instead you pull him into a hug and squeeze him tight.
Dirk? His voice sounds confused, but it soon melts into something that is completely new and completely Jake. He relaxes in your arms and tells you that hed always dreamed of the day hed meet his best bro in person. Im just glad youre not your bloody robot counterpart! Or those blasted shades; those arent the shades are they? You shake your head. Good, because Id give them a wallop if they were. Do you have any idea how infuriating that contraption was Dirk? It nearly gave me a headache almost all the time.
He steps back from you and looks concerned, Are you ok Strider? You seem unwell. You practically flinch at his words, You havent said a word thus far, are you nervous? He laughs and smiles, I cant imagine that! Dirk Strider, nervous? Of me? He laughs again, Hell Im the nervous one, practically shaking in my boots. So whats wrong? I thought youd be happy to see me?
You nod quickly, you are so happy to see him. Casually you grab his hand and lead him forward through the woods. It was a miracle you managed to get your transportalizer working, it was an even bigger miracle that you mustered up the courage and actually stepped onto the platform that whizzed you to Jakes island in record time. Thankfully you had the foresight to grab your phone and alert Jake to your arrival.
That phone now sat in your pocket.
You sure are a lot quieter than I thought youd be. I figured youd be ready to talk up a storm!
You wince again and pray he hasnt noticed. This was something you hadnt planned. This was something youd never planned on. Its not like you were ever going to meet another human ever. It was a problem you hadnt thought about and now youre deeply regretting not saying something sooner. This was probably the most awkward un-calculated plan youd ever had.
Nervous didnt even begin to describe what you were feeling.
Here was Jake. Simple, lovable, dorky, Jake English. He was smiling and laughing and falling on his face trying to impress you. It seemed so simple, yet it was so hard. You realized something watching him though; you remembered that he was seeing a human for the first time since his grandmother died all those years ago. He was probably just as scared and excited about this as you were.
You watched him, and walked beside him, and caught him when he fell. He was right, the two of you fit so perfectly next to each other, it hurt to think about. He was an ambitious kid who loved showing off and making you smile. You were fast and quick to show him up at anything. Jake moved past asking about your odd behaviors and instead seemed to focus on doing what he did best, being Jake.
You would smile, laugh, and frown. Gestures were key and you made sure that your emotions were out in the open as much as you could. It was weird, breaking down all these barriers youd constructed. The walls you made to keep yourself strong didnt matter now, you had someone to talk to, well, not exactly talk to, but you had someone to touch, someone to see. It was more than you had ever imagined.
Night fell and you both ended up sitting along the cliffs. The stars were out and bright and the ocean waves pounded against rocks. Your heartbeat matched. Jake fell backwards and looked up into the dark sky. Dirk, this is nice. Just the two of us. Its great, better than I had hoped for.
You nodded and Jake continued to watch you, So Strider, Im going to go out on a limb and guess you fancy me, right?
He grinned as your eyes grew wide and you sat up. Freezing wasnt exactly the best thing to do, nor was it the grand romantic gesture you were hoping for. Swallowing hard you nodded. Good! Because I happen to fancy you quite a bit as well! Sorry for leading you astray there
all those years
must have been hard.
Carefully you nodded and hugged him again. So uh, Dirk, Im also going to guess that you cant speak? You really do hate the way your body freezes when you get stressed, you nod again. Thought so, its ok. I was just making sure I hadnt scared you or anything. He laughed and fell back down to stare at the sky. It explains why youve been silent as the grave.
You fall back too, only this time you roll against his side. I dont mind, Dirk. Youre you, so dont hold back.
Quickly you retrieved your phone from your pocket and opened pesterchum real fast.
TT: Hello English.
You showed it to him and he laughed, Ello Strider.
TT: I apologize for being such an awkward fuck up.
You were not, he protests and laughs, Though I have to admit, I was quite concerned about you at first. I was worried I was annoying or something stupid like that.
TT: Youre not annoying. Never annoying English, and never dull.
TT: So you honestly dont mind?
Mind what my friend?
TT: Me, being you know, unable to talk and all?
TT: This doesnt strike you as strange or something that you want to pry deeper into?
It is not my place to do that, Jake took out a small computer device as well; you figured it was so he didnt have to read yours. If you want to tell me, you will. If you dont then Ill be fine with as well.
TT: I suppose. Well, I suppose I could talk.
TT: I just
TT: Oh god that sounds weird bro, sorry man.
TT: But when you spend all your time alone, with no one around to talk to and no reason to
TT: Well, your voice seems like a piece of shit thing to invest time into.
TT: So I never did.
TT: Instead I built robots, and made devices to allow us to communicate better and send objects.
Youve never spoken before? You shrugged and typed.
TT: Never had to.
Well at least you know the language.
TT: Of course. Its not like Ive never heard speech before, there are movies and news broadcasts, Ive heard people talk a lot.
TT: But like I said before, with no one around to listen whats the point?
Hey Im around now. And you have the transporter working right? So we can visit anytime correct? You nod and Jake smiles, So you could talk to me.
TT: Its not that easy, but thanks Jake.
TT: And by the way, I think I love you.
Wow, you sure know how to be smooth there, Jake laughed a bit more. I finally figured out your feelings and mine. Only took me forever, huh?
TT: Could have been longer.
Dirk Strider is unlike anyone youve ever known, or ever hoped to know. He is strong and fast and pretty gosh darn handsome to boot! He was also silent, so very silent. But it wasnt bad, it was Dirk. You know the feeling of having no one to talk to; the years after your grandma departed were the hardest on you. What you didnt think you could imagine was having no one to talk to ever. Spending your whole life alone with no human contact must have been difficult, at least you had someone, you had your grandma, you knew the sound and touch of another human being. Dirk never had that.
So you would eagerly await his arrival in the ruins and plan a bunch of stuff to do with him. It almost all included hiking or exploring, then when you were done food and relaxation! It was like being on vacation for your whole life. Only you got to bring the person you cared for deeply with, every time.
So Dirk, I was wondering, have you ever thought about living here, with me, full time? He shook his head. Aw, why not? You watched him bite his lip and shift uneasily, his mouth opened but he closed it almost immediately.
TT: I have responsibilities in the future Jake. Thats all.
Bullocks. Here I was hoping we could live together or something. Just keep the idea in your head maybe?
TT: Sure thing English.
What kind of responsibilities do you have?
TT: The kind that require meticulous planning and a hell of a lot of devoted time.
TT: Its complicated shit Jake. And it mainly revolves around keeping me available for these little time travel adventures of ours.
what if I come live with you?
TT: Impossible. Youd go insane from boredom.
Hahaha that is probably correct Strider, I just miss your company.
TT: Me too.
Your adventures with Dirk were rather fun and since he hadnt gotten to explore much of your island there was plenty to show him. Lots of nights were spent staring at the stars and just being close. Sometimes you would try to get him to talk, but he would laugh and push you away.
TT: Im sure my voice would sound ridicules anyway.
Come on Strider! I like your laugh, you said nudging him with your elbow. Im sure your voice cant be that bad.
Dirk sighed and rolled into your side, Jake not now.
You sat up without meaning to and looked down at Dirk with wide eyes. You said my name, Dirk say it again.
He smirked and replied Jake English.
Oh ho ho! I knew you could!
Ive been practicing, but its awkward as fuck, Dirk rubbed the back of his head nervously.
You fell back down and let him rest his head on your chest. You know, Ive always thought it was weird that you never spoke to anyone before, not even your robots or the little fish. Didnt you always wonder what you sounded like?
TT: Not really. I just wasnt into that whole thing. I liked the sound of people conversing, but it always reminded me of what Id never have, a human partner.
TT: Maybe Ill take up rapping.
TT: You dont like raps?
Well then, Im not fond of them, but if theyre something you enjoy then I want you to pursue that! He laughed again and you said softer, Hey Dirk, can you please stay the night?
Why? He asked, growing a bit more confident with his voice.
I just dont want you to go back, like you do every night, You fiddled with the hem of your jacket and placed your focus on the stars above. Ive spent so much time alone, I miss having a body next to me while I sleep.
Yeah Jake, I can stay.
Hesitantly you added, And maybe you could turn off your phone? Speak to me with your voice?
He paused before agreeing, Yes, Jake, I can try.
Good, Im rather fond of hearing your voice. You added quickly, Not that I was bothered when you were silent, that was ok too, I just like hearing you. It makes you seem more-
Dirk leaned over and captured your lips in his own, Jake, shut up.
I-I can do that, you grinned wide and pulled him down for another embrace and kiss.
Your name is Dirk Strider and suddenly life doesnt seem as hard as it did before. Theres still a lot of pressures and your life is far from being completely under control. But right now youre smiling and laughing and speaking. For the first time in your life, youre talking, and someone is talking back.
Suddenly, the world seems less lonely.